May 2013...The ups and downs

Well this has been an interesting month so far. The first week we had baby home mom, Zach, Brian and I all got the stomach bug. Man we were sick so the first week baby was home he had a sleep over with grandma on our couch! Fun! Well that just led to the scariest week of my family's lives. I woke up Tuesday morning the 7th with the shakes, chills, dizzy, ran into the wall going to the bathroom, and vomiting yellow bile stuff. Lets just say I was sicker then a dog. Well I couldn't make myself get up off the bathroom floor so Brian and mom decided he better take me to the er, being I just had a baby the week before and then that stomach virus and now I'm sick again. Worse. I do not remember much that day or that week to follow. I was transferred to Tulsa hospital and admitted into icu. They found out I had viral meningitis. Wednesday I went into seizures, four to be exact, in the elevator and in the room for the MRI. Misty was with me and by Gods divine intervention a nuerologist was in the room with another patient so he took the lead on the rapid response team that worked on me. Thank God! And this amazing dr was a preacher! Oh how good our God is. Anyways I went into seizures caused by the meningitis and they had to put a breathing and feeding tube in. Well next thing I knew it was Friday and I was waking up. All I can remember is the feeling of them pulling that tube out was like opening a fruit roll up, pulling the paper off. Then I began to get better. Just weak, tired and Headaches from the lumbar puncture. Brian said I scared everyone too death. He never left my side. Oh how I love that man. Except of course for Zachs kindergarten graduation Friday night! I had to miss it but so glad Brian and his family got to go! I can't believe my baby is a 1st grader now! Time flies! Well I was finally released from the hospital on Monday evening after 7 days in the hospital, 4 of which was in icu. I'm so thankful for all the prayers and support my family has seen through this. I never imagined how much! Our God is so good and I never wanna forget to live life to the fullest cause u never know when it's ur turn to go. 

Tball and soccer also ended this month. Boys loved it! I'm so glad I put Logan I. Tball! He's more outgoing and loves playing with the other kids! I think it's helped prepare him for prek in the fall! I still can't believe he's old enough for school! He's coming more out of his shell and its so fun to watch his personality come out! He had so much fun with Zach playing tball. Summer time now, I'm gonna have to try to keep them busy! Downside to bein sick is that I have restrictions now. Can't be alone at al with the baby for six months, can't drive either so we will be staying back and forth between our parents since Brian leaves for work everyday at 5. I also have to take meds and pray it never happens again. They're 90% sure it was just cause I had meningitis I had the seizures but to make sure and better be safe then sorry. So that has been our month of may. Very scary and long so far but I hope to feel better everyday and get back to normal soon! Thank u all again for the prayers and support. It means so much to me to know that God has put so many wonderful supportive people on our lives. Thank u! God bless! 

Clayton Christopher Hatton

Hello guys! Can't believe it's been so long since I wrote last! I just can't seem to remember to! Anywho, baby boy number three came this last week! April 25.2013 we welcomed Clayton Christopher Hatton into our family! I had a 2nd repeat csection and everything went ok. Harder then expected, being we decided this would be our last baby, and I had my tubes tied. We since have been home almost a week and man, it's only been 4 years since Logan was a newborn but I think I've forgot everything! He was only 6 lbs 5 ounces when he was born and 20 in long! He was our littles bundle of joy and had a head full of light blonde hair! He's long and lanky like grandpa Dan with long skinny everything! Lol he's already made such a big impact on my heart. I feel more appreciative of my kids, wanting to treasure each moment cause they won't be little for long. Zach turned 6 and Logan 4 the beginning of this year so I can't believe how fast time flies! Logan's playing his first year of tball with Zach and Brian assistant coaching. He'd rather play in the dirt then actually play but hey it's a learning experience. He's getting more outgoing and I hope it helps get him ready for preschool in the fall! I can't believe his old enough! Zach will be graduating from kindergarten this next week! Crazy! He loves school! Math is his favorite and his doin great learning to read! Amazes me how fast they learn! He's still in soccer and loves it! They both adore their new baby brother! They wanna hold him and kiss him all the time! Of course it last like two minutes before they are done. It's only been a week but I think they're doing just fine. Brian's off work with us another week so hopefully momma can rest and recover a little more before he goes back to work. Getting Logan and baby and I together to walk to grandmas this morning was hard enough, had to let baby Whine at me a bit while I got his stuff ready and our jackets on. Gotta get use to that! I forgot how much time newborns take! Becky's having Jackson on the 25 of may if she makes it that long! Her and her boys just love on baby Clay too. Josh comes in saying baby baby and hurries to kiss him! Too cute! They share a birthday! Clay was born on Joshua's 2nd bday! How neat! All the cousins are close and I'm glad! Now if they just get along all the time it would be great! Love it! Well I can't think of anything else so ill share some pics of this year so far!

Goodbye 2012...

Dang another year gone already!! I feel very blessed what God has done in our family and will do next year! This year Brian and I celebrated our 6 year wedding anniversary! Wow six years already. I have been blessed to have such a wonderful godly husband and father leading our family. Praying God gives us many more! Zach turned 5 last January, 6 in just a couple weeks! Wow has time flown with him. He's such a blessing and my biggest challenge. Lol he's hard headed, stubborn, independent and loving all in one! So much like his daddy. I pray daily I would have the patience with him and be calm an collected when he drives me crazy. He's got such a big heart and I'm so proud of who is he. He played tball in the spring, and soccer in the fall. He loved both of course so naturally this next spring we will be doing both tball and soccer again, and Logan will be playing tball too! Pray I don't fall over from exhaustion before this baby comes in April! Lol Zach also started kindergarten this year! He loves it! He's improving so much on his speech and loves learning new words but his favorite is math! Another trait from his daddy! Me, I like math till after algebra. Lol he loves making new friends, doesn't know a stranger/ talks to everyone, which Is not like me at all, and loves to shine when he is playing a game he loves. Soccer I believe he enjoyed more, more action and he was so fast he outrun everyone! He can't wait to start back in both sports.
Logan turned 3 last February and so will be 4 this year. He is so completely different from Zach. It's amazing how two children can be so different. Logan is more timid and soft like me. He's not as bold and outgoing as Zach but once he is comfortable in his surroundings he likes to make friends too. He loves blocks, reading books, cars and balls. August 2013 he will start prek! Omg I don't think I'm ready for that! He's my baby in all sense of the word. Zachs first day of school he just waved to me bye and was fine. I'm a little worried Logan won't be as easy to depart from. He's getting better but sometimes he cries when left in nursery still so we will pray he's ready when its time for him to go. He will start his first year of tball this spring and I'm so excited to see him and Zach play together! He's not as tough and not as coordinated as Zach so we shall see! But he loves ball so it should be exciting! He wants to do everything big brother does so I'm sure he will love it. I just pray they have such a strong bond and it continues to grow and stays strong as they get older and they also have it with new baby brother! My boys are such a joy on a regular basis and I'm so thankful God allowed me to be their momma!
Baby... Welp I'm 22 weeks this week going into the new year! I'm so excited now about this new little boy! Yes, I was hoping girl but once it sunk in I'm excited! Three boys! Yes I'll be very out numbered, and our house will be rowdy but I'm ready! May God let us train them up to be godly young men!
This year we also got our new house, paid off my car, land, and I finished my associates degree in school, all by Gods grace! I'm proud of what we are, and pray God works in each of our hearts this following year, that we may grow closer to him and closer to each other!

Baby #3- BOY

Baby number three is officially a boy! At first I was disappointed and cried because I was hoping girl, but now I'm excited! I love my boys, they keep me on my toes and lets just say our house is always rowdy! All my friends have been such a blessing saying sweet things like God knows u and Brian raise boys good and this world needs more good godly men. I appreciate all the wonderful comments. Brian and I had no clue what to name him but we've come down to a couple we like. Thinking we will go with either Clay or Clayton Christopher. I also liked Corbin, Jacob, and Stephen. But whatever we decide we are so thankful Gods blessing us with another little boy to love and cherish and raise in a godly home with Zach and Logan. As Christmas is getting closer I'm so thankful for family and friends and hope we all remember the reason for the season!

October....

Wow how october flew by! It seems like we just started and it's already past! Well not much going on around here. Fall break tested my patience. Oh how I was ready for school to start back! I love Zach but he's such a busy body and I could not keep him entertained enough! Lol Logan's pretty content with cartoons or color books. Halloween came up so fast I was not prepared! The boys love dressing up and this year Zach was a jail bird and Logan a pirate! Of course we planned the whole trick or treat thing around town and then church, but before that could happen this momma got that awful stomach bug. So needless to say, this pregnant woman was like a zombie from Tuesday before halloween till the following monday. It was the worse stomach bug I have had! Stomach cramps as bad as contractions, if I weren't sick I would have been concerned. Then the other back door symptom came and it was rough! Still fighting it off guess cause i have no immune system. But daddy stepped in and took the boys trick or treating so they had a blast! Not so fun for me but hey it's for the kids right! So then came November. Yay! I love this time of year. Glad the elections over, now everyone can stop talking about it and pray about it! Gods still in control no matter who is president. I love holiday meals! I know thanksgiving is next but come on! I love love love all things Christmas! Music, deco, hallmark movies!!! That started on weekends already so I'm in heaven! So I'm so excited to see what happens this holiday season! Thanksgiving always makes me feel warm and snuggly. Time for hot cocoa, fall leaves, hoodies and blankets. Families feel closer and everyone remember it's the time To remember what God has given us!
On the pregnancy side of things. I'm 15 weeks and so ready To feel good an get over this sick feeling! I was feeling better Till this bug came to visit so hopefully I will come back to life a little just in time for the holidays! I love food too did I mention that!? Love love love turkey dressing and the works! Man Oh man I can see the calories and my belly growing already! Lol love u all
And may God bless u this upcoming holiday season!

My chicken pot pie!!

Ok guys seriously this is my favorite recipe! I love chicken. I could eat chicken every meal! I love it! So I'm gonna share my chicken pot pie recipe. Of course I'm not a big veggie person, I know bad bad, but come on! At least I put one in it and you can add as many as you like! I made it today and my sister says where's the peas! Lol I was like u make it and add the peas! Lol so here ya go! Enjoy!

Cream of chicken soup- small can what is it 14oz or something. Lol
Carrots
Potatoes
2 cans 8oz crescent rolls( or one can buscuits) personally I love crescent rolls so that's what I use!
Chicken! (I use canned cause I think it tastes just as good and I'm lazy but real works too of course! Lol)

Roll out one can crescent rolls on bottom of casserole dish. Mix soup and veggies and potatoes with the chicken and pour over crescent bottom. Salt pepper to taste. Cover mix with can of crescent rolls flat and bake at 350 about 25-30 or till dough is done!

Super easy and I love it! Kids even eat it, sometimes! Lol I know I should add veggies but carrots is plenty for me! Lol I hope u enjoy! We do!

Bean casserole- yummy!

Soo thought Id share tonight's dinner with y'all! I got it from m fantastic inlaws so I don't take credit! Lol

Bean Casserole

1 lb hamburger meat or ground sausage ( could probably do ground turkey too but never tried it)
1 can pork and beans
1 can cream of chicken soup
1 can rotel- I'm a big baby and can't stand things too hot so I only do half but if u like spicy then u will like the whole can!
And some tortilla chips!

Put tortilla chips in bottom of casserole dish. Not too thick but enough to cover, I usually smash them.( hubby likes them thick so up to ur preference.) Cook meat then mix all together and pour on top of chips in dish and cover with shredded cheese and you have dinner! My hubby loves it!

Yummy yummy. I love simple quick casseroles! I make several and would love to share as I remember! And you Guys can share some too!

Baby oh baby!

Hello! It's now September 9, 2012 and Brian and I found out last week that baby number 3 is on the way! Yay! Well, those that know me know I am not a good patient. And this pregnancy has already Been worse then the last two! My tummy is constantly in knots and I feel like I've already gained ten pounds!!! In just 6 short weeks! Dang. Ok so Chinese gender prediction chart says f!!! So excited! I know I know, it's all up to the Lord but I can dream right!? Lol anyways the chart was right on target with zach and Logan and alot of friends too when they had kids so I'm hoping it comes out true! Oh how I would love a little girl! Little girl to go with my two wonderful little boys would be such a blessing! Anyways, I'm beyond blessed and I'm trying my hardest not to complain the whole time but man, no matter what I eat this baby does not like it! Last times, I could eat crackers, or ice, or peanut butter an it helped calmed my stomach done but this time everything that goes in makes me wanna run to the bathroom! So far just queezy and no action so that I can be grateful for!
I'm so excited, yet nervous at the same time. For one, Brian and I will be outnumbered! Lol we need to grow extra arms! And for two, my body is not what it use to be. I've had two surgeries since my last csection, 3 almost four years ago and so I'm nervous about the healing after this one, but I know I can do it through Christ! I pray for a a healthy baby and surgery and that's all I can do!
Zach is beyond excited! He's been wanting a little "sister" since prek last year and so now he's ready! It's all about baby. Is baby hungry, baby full? Baby cold? I wanna hug the baby! It just makes my heart swell. He just doesn't understand the waiting nine months part! Lol Logan is a little young, he knows theres a baby in my tummy but not quite excited since he's the baby! Lol he's been very clingy lately so I think he can tell. I'm just super excited what the lord will do in our family the next year! When we moved and got our house we got rid of all the "extra" we didn't need, unfortunately that included anything baby, since at that point I hadn't talked Brian into another one. So we are starting over! If and I say if!!! Lol we have another boy we will be set clothes wise but I'm still crossing my fingers and praying for a girl though. Lol I will appreciate all the prayers and cant wait to share on this wonderful journey! =)

A Year Flew By....

It seems like yesterday that we were in snowmegaden 2011! And that was over a year ago! SO much has happened since then its insane! My babies are really growing into big boys and its so sad. Im still going strong at Rose, hoping to be done with this chapter in my life soon, goal is december. After that, who knows! My oldest, my dear Zachary started Prek this last fall and Im so excited for where Gods taking him. Hes still headstrong, independent, stubborn as a mule, that comes from his father. He always wants to be active, I think he will be the one Im running around the most with to every sporting event possible. Im not ready. We signed up for TBALL so its already starting. Ahhh. He loves Zach which is a blessing. I usually dont have to fight him to get him up, hes usually up and around waking me up! He is a morning person from the time his feet hit the floor in the morning. Hes always wanting to run and play, so full of life. Can we get some of our childrens energy? That would be nice. Hes going to be a leader, not a follower like me, and Im so thrilled to see where God takes him one day. I pray daily that he will come to know the Lord, and that he will devote his life to him and his love. Logan is much different. It amazes me how different they are. Logan is soft, gentle and not near as rough as his older brother. He would be perfectly content alone, watching cartoons if brother would leave him to this. Ya right. Logan is mommas boy to the tee. Hes gonna be my clinging one I think when it comes time for him to start school. Zach just waved and said see ya later! lol. Logan is not as dependent and is so much like me its like looking into a mirror, where Zach is just like the hubby. Logan has a huge smile and its always glued to his face wherever we go. They both love going to church, and cant wait to learn about Jesus which makes my heart soar. Oh how Im blessed to have a husband that desires to know God, and takes his family to church on sunday morning. I love that. I have gone to the same church since I was 8 and feel extremely blessed. I love that church with all my heart. I hope to grow into a strong godly woman like I saw in my mother growing up. Anyways, my boys are also where I pray the hardest. I wanna be the best mom I can be and that takes patience, prayers and more prayers. I still catch myself and have to count to 10 twice because they are all boy and sometimes drive me crazy! I never had a brother, and my dad was a truck driver and so it was just me and my sister and mom most of the time so boys are all new! How different they are. lol. I just love them to peices and thank God for them everyday. I still would love a little girl, but still havent confinced the hubby to try again... We shall see what the Lord has in store in that department. I feel closer to him and content with my life right now. I havent worked since November and I feel God wants me home. Home to be the mother my kids need, and a wife my hubby needs. We shall see also where that road goes, cause I enjoy working out of the house too with the public, and miss it to a point. Yet I feel closer than ever to my kids and my hubby and my God not working. Sundays should the the lords day so I have so come to love church on that day and thats all. Its nice not to have to fight with a boss to have sundays off. Another chapter in our lives is upon us and its harder than ever. A new home to call home. Were staying with the parents, which is hard and prayers are appreciated. We are suppose to be getting a brand new doublewide moved in any day now, but something keeps coming up. I have recently given it to God and pray it comes through soon. If not, we will just move back into our tiny little trailer and be happy with the Lord.. hopefully. Im praying it happens and lets us have a place to call home again soon. Well, gotta run and do homework now.... Which proves to be a nightmare anymore. It feels good to be back writing, hopefully I can make time for it more often. Prayers be with you and your family and love abide fully! God bless!

baby or no baby?

I am thinking about having another baby. i would love to have a little girl. ! A girl to go shopping with, teach to cook, sew, scrapbook and dress up! yet on the other hand, I am very content with my too loving boys. Zach will be 4 next week. I think im in shock. That means he will start school in the fall! This begins a whole new chpt in his life that doesnt revolve around me or his daddy..... logan will be 2 next month so he isnt a baby either anymore. Maybe im having baby syndrome.?
And... school. I love having the opportunity of going back to school....I apply for the radiology prg this semester and will knw in June whether I am chosen. they only take 25 students so im crossing my fingers.... !
Brian n I discussed having a baby if i do not get into that program this spring. Yet, do I wanna have another baby and then try again next year for the program only to have a newborn at home? We have already decided if I did have another baby I would no longer work and that means probably no school either... do I want that or wait?? But if i wait then that puts more years between the kids and how many years are too many for them to be close? If i wait that means my two boys will be well out of the baby stage would we want to go back and start over then? I really would love to have another baby yet my mind right now wants a degree! I guess all i can do is pray that I get into the program or decide its Gods will to have another baby. Gods will be done right....
it would be nice not to have to work but can we really afford another baby with only one income? Brians income pays the bills but what about the extras we enjoy now. I dunno.. im torn on this...

WHat does everyone think??? I would love opinions and advice! My scatterbrain is just scattered on this!

NEW YEAR 2011!!!

HEY EVERYONE!! Wow already another year! It is crazy the older I get how time flies! 2010 was an overall good year I believe. I started school again, hoping to enter into the Radiology program this fall... that is if i can make a good score on that dreeded MATH compass test! Urg.... math is not my friend! I like school this time around. I find it challenging, and I actually like what im learning. In high school, there was so much drama and useless bs that I hated it. This time go round, im a little more mature and I actually wanna do this for myself and my family. I wanna get a degree so I can help support my family and get out of working dead end jobs. I go to Rose State which is smaller then UCO where I went for a year after high school. I like it alot and I started online classes as well and i really like how you can do it when you have the time.... It is very convientent since i chase two little boys, a husband, and work part time.
Overall 2010 went by way too fast. My boys will be turning 4 and 2 this month and next month! Zach is being very stubborn in the toilet training dept. but is getting it better if he would just go number two in the toilet! Hes very determined, independent and loves to be outside with papa and the animals. He is a very outgoing and strong almost 4 year old. He will be starting prek this fall, which Im looking forward to so he can learn and grow but yet will be a very hard thing... which many of you already know. Logan is turning 2 in Feb. Hes also getting indepenent and growing up way too fast! Hes more like me in everyway... he milks it when hes hurt, sick and just not getting his way. He loves to play with bubba when bubba lets him. He also loves to be outside. They are all boy in every way. Logan is more sensitive then Zach but he stands his ground when he wants something or bubba tries to take his toy! They both have that stubborn quality from their daddy! lol... Brian still works at Kimray, going on 5 years in october.... wow! And this year will be our 5 year wedding anniversary in April! Where as time gone! Time sure flies when your having fun. I just hope 2011 brings the joys and laughter that 2010 did..... may God bless you all!

my favs....

well i havent wrote in a while but i have been thinking alot on writing about a few of my favprite things about my boys...
Zachary Daniel…
my top favorite thing would have to be when he climbs in bed with me in the mornings when daddysgone... he will put his arms around my neck, get right up next to my neck and whisper love you mom.... melts me right there? no matter how early he tends to rise how can you get mad at that!? then he cuddle next to me and fall back to sleep for an hour or so...
hes so independent.. loves to do things himself... says me ma me i do! lol and he usually can! he already plays video games with dad which he wins time to time. lol thats funny. hes always wanting to do things with his daddy which is so cute!
thats enough on him for now.... lol
Logan Hunter...
logan is very different from zach, where zach is just like his daddy i see alot of me in logan...
my favorite thing withlogan is his smile lights up his face all the time... he shines when he smiles. another would have to be how he sticks hos belly out when he walks! hes like super baby with his chest stickin out! lol he still wobbles a little but its so cute! my slow learner! hes pretty much happy all the time unless he is sick... which hes whinny like me... joy joy lol
thats the top list for my boys... zach loves swimming and fishing right now and logan loves food.... lol they are both growing so up fast. im trying to learn to enjoy every second and not yell too much... lol for you never know when it will end. i thank god everyday for my family.

Summer 2010 begins!....

Hey all! Well not much happening around my house lately! The boys are both growing up so fast.... Zach is almost three and a half and Logan is almost 16 months. He is still not walking, he is still scared of his height. He is already 33 inches tall! weighing 26 LBS. Zach os still half potty trained... i may kill him before he is there, for hes just as stubborn as his daddy! Need i say more! lol. Logan is very mellow like my dad but very whiney like me... lol go figure. But he is also not yet as wild and hyper as Zach is. Zach is fulll of energy 24 7! His favorite thing right now is fishing with daddy and playing ball..no matter what kind. Logan loves cartoons and just playing alone, when big brother leaves him alone. They are so different its funny. Logans smile is priceless so he has been called smiley by many strangers everytime we go out.! He loves to smile so he is usually one happy guy!
Brian is working hard still at Kimray then comes home and does yard work. Our yard looks great! 8m workin on getting pretty plants and bushes planted, getting them one by one since they get kinda pricy! Brian is trying to get me to start getting my hands dirty so i help a little with the planting. lol I have never liked getting dirt under my nails! But i can water them cause its not the dirty job! We will see how long they live! My mom does not have a green thumb so Im thinking I inherited that lack of gene! I am currently working at Ezgo on turnpike at Stroud, which is fastpaced and keeps me busy which i Like. i have been there almost nine months and it seems to last a while till i decide ti get pg again, which will not be anytime soon ignoring my mothers hoping. I am very content with my two boys for now.... a girl in the future would be nice but for now my crazy boys are good for us! With every new day they grow up, laughing and showing me new things. Motherhood is a full time hard job but its worth when tpyou put a smile on their faces! Well thats all for now from our neck of the woods!

Busy Busy Busy!

Well, lets see... its been a very long time since i shared... been rather busy, with work, and chasing my now three year old around and caring for logan whos almost one keeps me on my toes. christmas was amazing... loving every bit of family time, snow and all the moments we all shared. the christmas eve blizzard landed us all at moms for two days which was stressful being in one house with my sister and brother in law... lol.... but we survived with our hair still in tact. Christmas was exciting, Logans first... zach still loving to rip open the wrapping shout in excitment then forget it and off to the next one. he had a blast.
this was alos the first christmas effie was not a part of and it was hard, we each missing her smile, presence and great peanut brittle. a carrie underwood song temorary home, the last verse says it so well.... makes me cry everytime but its the way i like to picture effie.... seeing jesus' face rejoicing. she was very missed and always thought of.
january passed ina blur... work and kids, seems to be an endless cylce which we all enjoy.... zach turning three which is crazy considering he was just born yesterday! lol but all in all its been great.
yes we have tought times, struggles to work through but at the end of the day all that matters is the love in our hearts for each other and our friends that make our life worthwhile. God is good and to be praised everyday for the love he gives us to share with people we love.

Shocking Truth ?

Well, today my mother told me some very shocking news. She spent and hour and a half last night talking to Effies sister Ruth on the phone. Lets just say it was a conversation that held a lot of meaning and surprises that came to life. I She revealed some very shocking things, concerns concerning Effies daughter Linda. Please bare with me as i explain, for its really hard to think about.
I never really knew linda, she lived in the city and was hardly ever around, that i can remember anyways. She is the oldest of effies four children that are still alive, two had already passed on. So therefore, when effie got sick, in the hospital and everything, Linda took charge. Charge of everything, which we thought was natural. She told us that the boys, the other three siblings, didnt really want to step up, didnt wanna face the truth, which we could see, so we thought. Well, from day one of effies hospital stay linda always just really blew everyone off, saying shes about the same really everytime anyone would ask how effie was. But we just thought she was telling the truth....
well, as mom was telling me the conversation last night, that was probably not the truth at all, rather something linda said just to get everyone to back off and leave her alone, to deal with her mother on her own.
According to ruth, which is effies loving sister who mom trusts with her whole heart Linda may have been the cause to effies death....
I nearly fainted hearing this... what?? how in the world could this daughter that was effies pride and joy be the cause of her death!? well, mom went on the explain.
Linda had told everyone that she had retired from a bank where she worked for over twenty years, which ruth now tells mom that she was fired not quit. PLus, she has a gambling problem, which explains. Effie was clearly ashamed because she had never told mom. So long story short, ruth believes when effie had the heart surgery and was doing good in the hospital, that linda moved her to the rehab place, ON HER OWN and thats when she turned for the worst. Doctors did not advise her to be moved. Linda did it, why!!?? who knows.... effie had two life insurance policies. Effie was getting better in the hospital and as soon as she was put in the other place her body started shutting down. She was giving up, is what linda told us. NO!!!!! Linda gave up on her!!!! Maybe she wanted the money,? why else would you move her!!!! it blows my mind. I cant imagine letting my mother die so i could have her money!!!! And, all the money effie left behind, linda kept, not sharing any with her brothers. i cant believe it.... effie might still be here today if linda had not moved her. You could tell seeing her in that place that she was unhappy, the look of defeat! now i can understand why! Her heart had healed phyisically but her daughter broke it afterwards..... effie may still be with us if her daughter hadnt been selfish, put on a big front! it breaks my heart. i know shes in a better place, and it was her time or god wouldnt have taken her, but still... why would her own daughter do it??? how can she do it?? now, she wont even talk to her aunt, Ruth, and hasnt gave anyone in her family a dime.... how sad.....

i must go for now had to vent a little.... just dont understand what some people will do.

Thanks and blessings....

well, not much to say today, but just wanted to say thanks... to God, family and friends. My friend recently had a baby at 28 weeks and it just got me thanking god for two easy, healthy pregnancies and kids. I know this is truly a blessing, esp in todays society. I feel so previledged to have had that. I try my best to live a godly life, which is not easy and at times i fail, but he is forever there and good in my life. No matter what happens, good or bad i know it goes through gods hands first, which makes me smile cause i know he will not give us more than we can handle. This new job is a blessing, yet a challenge too for none of my co workers are christians and live lives that are not very godly. Which in turns make me thank god repeatedly for all he has given me. Without him we are nothing.
Family and friends make life worth while. I will always be grateful for those who listen, inspire and just take time out for me and my family. God knows what each of us needs and brings the right person in at the right time. Were no where near perfect dont get me wrong, but i enjoy life with god right on my side, leading and changing us each and everyday.
Well, have to head to bed, we sleep while they sleep... which isnt much these days working really threw off my sleep patterns... anyways, i hope to blog more regularly if i ever find the time... until next time!!! GOD BLESS

Busy Busy

ok, so i havent blogged in a while so i thought i would catch everyone up! lol Since my last post life has been super busy. I got a job, which i desperately needed and i like it. Its at EZ GO on the turnpike at stroud. I like it because its money, who doesnt, and pay is better then any other job i have had, it stays busy all the time, a constant thing to do so i dont get bored! I am a little sore, i mopped the entire store last night and im super sore... i havent worked that hard since before ZAch, three years!!!! i am soo out of shape, two babies and a galbladder removal will do that to a person! But im crossing my fingers and hoping that i can loose weight with this job too so thats a plus! But i really enjoy working, sitting at home in the house all day was driving me crazy. i love spending time with my kids, but i needed a job to keep my sanity. lol. but im only working part time so i really enjoy it cause it also gives me days home with the boys. But financially we needed a second income, in todays society its hard supporting four on one income. anywho, i like it so i hope it goes well, once my muscles get use to the work.... lol
well, logan is seven and a half months old!! Crazyness!!! he is growing up so fast! He has four teeth, refuses to lay on his stomach to learn to crawl, but immediatlely rolls over. funny he thinks. hes very smiley, loves to laugh and is a great baby. I am extremely blessed to have two good babies. Logan is alot like me and my dad i believe where zach is brians twin, help us all. lol. Logan is very laid back and happy go lucky, where zach is to but he has to be on the go constantly, working or helping and getting into everything!! Zach is independent, a helper always even if its not much a help, a hard worker he wil be and i love that about him. I cant wait till logan gets that age to see what his traits will be! =)
Zach is two and a half, three in january and still refuses to go to the big boy potty!! He still sits on it forever just to sit then pees in the floor so i think it will be a long process, oh did i mention he is just as stubborn as his daddy too!! omg hard headed through and through, like father like son.... lol
anyways,
mom.... well shes doing ok. After Effies funeral things have been different. She said to me once "who will i run around with, go shopping with? call just to chat?
" shes taking it hard, for she was her best friend for thirty years, but she has been so strong. She remembers her for the friend she was and all the precious memories we have had. She gets down every once in a while but who wouldnt? I cant imagine loosing a friend of that many years would be easy, but she feels truly blessed for the time she had with Effie. We all do. That little white house on the corner of eleventh street will never be the same, without the big happy heart of that very special lady we all came to love.
well, before i start a tear party, i better change the subject...
My adopted sister Kelsey had her baby this past month, a perfect little girl weighing a little 5 pounds, my kids head weighed more than that! But it was such a beautiful thing. Maybe not under the best circumstances she was created but she is so dearly loved and brought two people together in a way i am thankful for. I think they wil be a happy little family, regardless of what the world thinks of them. For they are one, and happy and no one can hinder that. Zayli is her name and she is a true blessing of how God can get someones attention, which has certainly happened in this case. Kelsey and De has been given this daughter to love and protect and watching them with her i know they certainly do and will for the rest of their laugh. For once, i remeber kels has a little girl, not a care in the world, now all grown up having a baby of her own, how god can change us all. Kels is grown into a beautiful young lady, a mother. God is Good

lets see.... i guess i cant think of anything else. Brian still works at Kimray and loves it.... gets to start working overtime again, which is great... i love my new job, and my kids are growing up way tooo fast!!! If this rain ever dries up, it will be nothing but sunshine and laughs around this house!!!

Saying Goodbye is never easy

This past week a dear friend of our family passed away. Mrs. Effie Beaird. She was like a gradma to me, and a best friend to my mom for 33 years. So needless to say, it was a tough week.
Monday was the day we got the news. We had been up there to see effie at the hospital the following friday and just had a gut feeling that she was ready to go to heaven. Mom and dad then spent most of the day saturday and sunday. We all were not ready to say goodbye. For she had been sick for several months and i guess just was ready to go home. She had valve surgery and her heart healed fine, but her other organs decided to shut down. We were all with her the day of her heart surgery, got to hug her, say i love you so we were thankful for that. For during her last two months, she could not talk cause she had to be on the breathing tubes. At first she could smile and respond, but the last couple days couldnt even do that. It was too sad for me to watch. The first time i went ot see her at the rehab place, she was so swollen she couldnt hardly fit in the bed. I was so shocked. I only stayed in there a minute and went out crying. I couldnt stand looking at her, the once strong solid women i had knew all my life, now lay helpless, swollen so large that it just broke my heart. The next time we went to see her in the hospital, where her daughter took her back to, the friday before she died i did the same thing. I couldnt make myself stay in there and look at her dying, it was just too much. Looking back i wish i could have been stronger to share those last days with her, but my heart just couldnt do it.
The monday she died, everytime moms phone ring we were just waiting. Waiting for the call to come that she had passed. Passed on the be with jesus. Thats the only reason we all made it through the last couple weeks. Knowing she was a very strong christian and she would be going to see her King. Like a wise friend of mine told me, its not goodbye, its see you later... For we will meet her again in the sky.
The funeral service was saturday. It was tough. But yet it was a great service. LIke the preacher said our flesh will be sad and missing her, yet our spirit rejoices cause we know shes in a better place. I can picture her clear as day, singing and rejoicing with our lord.
We will miss her smile, her words of encouragement and her presence. My mom said yesterday, Who am i to ride around with now. But yet, we know we will move on, and remember her for the wonderful lady she was. Our grandma. Our friend.

Camping...

This weekend, Brian and I took our boys to his parents and sit off to the lake. Chandler lake, but still its a lake! Well, those of you who know me know I am not a very good camper. lol. I like clean, no bugs or dirt, love my electricity. My husband however loves it and could live outdoors. He loves fishing, and i like it only if we acually catch something. And have we caught anything, no!!! lol Anyways, i dont mind it if its not burning hot and the bugs arent attacking you. Well, this weekend, we are with michaels family since michael and bec got a new boat. It is pretty cool! I liked relaxing in the sun and feel the water splashing on my face.
Now were sitting around talking while the boys fish, again. Thats all they wanna do! my my. Anyways, and get this, i can not sleep on the ground, so therefor we always bring our blow up matress!! goes right in tent and tada!! Its like a bed. I unfortunatly inherited my mothers bad back so i can not and will not come if i have to sleep on the hard cold ground. lol.
Sadly, the sun also gives me headaches so i cant be out in it very long, but this time of year its cooler so im enjoying it. got my visor, sunblock so hopefully i wont come home a lobster... those of you who are white know exactly what i am talking about. lol.
anyways, i try to camp some times a summer to be supportive of my hubby. its not too bad, would be more exciting if the fish would bite, the bugs wouldnt and my allergies would disapear,but all in all we have had a good time. Tonight will be the test, sleeping all night, thats why there is tylenol pm!!!

Potty Training, Day 1- A Nightmare Starts

I think im going to pull my hair out before this is done. I thought life was stressful before this! was i wrong. This morning at aproximately 9 i decided it was time to put zach in big boy underwear and start potty training. An hour and a half later, after sitting on potty four or five times, then giving him one cup of juice, he pees, not in his potty, but in his underwear right after getting up! ugh! well, went back to potty just to sit there fifteen minutes to not go. Well, changed undies and what happens, we eat lunch, one cup and i was gonna wait about ten minutes. Hadnt no more put him down and he pees, in his clean undies, all over the floor. I hurry him to bath room just to repeat the process!!! four underwears, three messes, and no pee in potty later, mom was ready to scream!!!! i know it cant happen over night but come on!! i then decided it was nap time, with diaper on!
Well, need less to say, im a little discouraged. I wish i could snap my fingers and make it happen! He is two and a half and i know its time to do this so i know i just gotta be patience. I have never had patience!! its the hardest thing i have come across yet being a mom, and im sure i can manage this hurdle. Once i figure out how. I tried the candy thing if he went in potty, and he never went in potty so that didnt work. he would wait till after he got off potty to go! so please, i would love some advice, encouragement and prayers that this is an easy transition.
I know it can be done, but its gonna take time. Zach is smart, but i dont know how he will learn to pee in potty before his new bid boy undies wind up soaked!! So i think ill put pull ups on, then try undies again in the morning. Lets cross our fingers and hope it comes along, before we go through more than a doaen pairs of undies a day!!!! lol thanks!!!