A Year Flew By....

It seems like yesterday that we were in snowmegaden 2011! And that was over a year ago! SO much has happened since then its insane! My babies are really growing into big boys and its so sad. Im still going strong at Rose, hoping to be done with this chapter in my life soon, goal is december. After that, who knows! My oldest, my dear Zachary started Prek this last fall and Im so excited for where Gods taking him. Hes still headstrong, independent, stubborn as a mule, that comes from his father. He always wants to be active, I think he will be the one Im running around the most with to every sporting event possible. Im not ready. We signed up for TBALL so its already starting. Ahhh. He loves Zach which is a blessing. I usually dont have to fight him to get him up, hes usually up and around waking me up! He is a morning person from the time his feet hit the floor in the morning. Hes always wanting to run and play, so full of life. Can we get some of our childrens energy? That would be nice. Hes going to be a leader, not a follower like me, and Im so thrilled to see where God takes him one day. I pray daily that he will come to know the Lord, and that he will devote his life to him and his love. Logan is much different. It amazes me how different they are. Logan is soft, gentle and not near as rough as his older brother. He would be perfectly content alone, watching cartoons if brother would leave him to this. Ya right. Logan is mommas boy to the tee. Hes gonna be my clinging one I think when it comes time for him to start school. Zach just waved and said see ya later! lol. Logan is not as dependent and is so much like me its like looking into a mirror, where Zach is just like the hubby. Logan has a huge smile and its always glued to his face wherever we go. They both love going to church, and cant wait to learn about Jesus which makes my heart soar. Oh how Im blessed to have a husband that desires to know God, and takes his family to church on sunday morning. I love that. I have gone to the same church since I was 8 and feel extremely blessed. I love that church with all my heart. I hope to grow into a strong godly woman like I saw in my mother growing up. Anyways, my boys are also where I pray the hardest. I wanna be the best mom I can be and that takes patience, prayers and more prayers. I still catch myself and have to count to 10 twice because they are all boy and sometimes drive me crazy! I never had a brother, and my dad was a truck driver and so it was just me and my sister and mom most of the time so boys are all new! How different they are. lol. I just love them to peices and thank God for them everyday. I still would love a little girl, but still havent confinced the hubby to try again... We shall see what the Lord has in store in that department. I feel closer to him and content with my life right now. I havent worked since November and I feel God wants me home. Home to be the mother my kids need, and a wife my hubby needs. We shall see also where that road goes, cause I enjoy working out of the house too with the public, and miss it to a point. Yet I feel closer than ever to my kids and my hubby and my God not working. Sundays should the the lords day so I have so come to love church on that day and thats all. Its nice not to have to fight with a boss to have sundays off. Another chapter in our lives is upon us and its harder than ever. A new home to call home. Were staying with the parents, which is hard and prayers are appreciated. We are suppose to be getting a brand new doublewide moved in any day now, but something keeps coming up. I have recently given it to God and pray it comes through soon. If not, we will just move back into our tiny little trailer and be happy with the Lord.. hopefully. Im praying it happens and lets us have a place to call home again soon. Well, gotta run and do homework now.... Which proves to be a nightmare anymore. It feels good to be back writing, hopefully I can make time for it more often. Prayers be with you and your family and love abide fully! God bless!

baby or no baby?

I am thinking about having another baby. i would love to have a little girl. ! A girl to go shopping with, teach to cook, sew, scrapbook and dress up! yet on the other hand, I am very content with my too loving boys. Zach will be 4 next week. I think im in shock. That means he will start school in the fall! This begins a whole new chpt in his life that doesnt revolve around me or his daddy..... logan will be 2 next month so he isnt a baby either anymore. Maybe im having baby syndrome.?
And... school. I love having the opportunity of going back to school....I apply for the radiology prg this semester and will knw in June whether I am chosen. they only take 25 students so im crossing my fingers.... !
Brian n I discussed having a baby if i do not get into that program this spring. Yet, do I wanna have another baby and then try again next year for the program only to have a newborn at home? We have already decided if I did have another baby I would no longer work and that means probably no school either... do I want that or wait?? But if i wait then that puts more years between the kids and how many years are too many for them to be close? If i wait that means my two boys will be well out of the baby stage would we want to go back and start over then? I really would love to have another baby yet my mind right now wants a degree! I guess all i can do is pray that I get into the program or decide its Gods will to have another baby. Gods will be done right....
it would be nice not to have to work but can we really afford another baby with only one income? Brians income pays the bills but what about the extras we enjoy now. I dunno.. im torn on this...

WHat does everyone think??? I would love opinions and advice! My scatterbrain is just scattered on this!

NEW YEAR 2011!!!

HEY EVERYONE!! Wow already another year! It is crazy the older I get how time flies! 2010 was an overall good year I believe. I started school again, hoping to enter into the Radiology program this fall... that is if i can make a good score on that dreeded MATH compass test! Urg.... math is not my friend! I like school this time around. I find it challenging, and I actually like what im learning. In high school, there was so much drama and useless bs that I hated it. This time go round, im a little more mature and I actually wanna do this for myself and my family. I wanna get a degree so I can help support my family and get out of working dead end jobs. I go to Rose State which is smaller then UCO where I went for a year after high school. I like it alot and I started online classes as well and i really like how you can do it when you have the time.... It is very convientent since i chase two little boys, a husband, and work part time.
Overall 2010 went by way too fast. My boys will be turning 4 and 2 this month and next month! Zach is being very stubborn in the toilet training dept. but is getting it better if he would just go number two in the toilet! Hes very determined, independent and loves to be outside with papa and the animals. He is a very outgoing and strong almost 4 year old. He will be starting prek this fall, which Im looking forward to so he can learn and grow but yet will be a very hard thing... which many of you already know. Logan is turning 2 in Feb. Hes also getting indepenent and growing up way too fast! Hes more like me in everyway... he milks it when hes hurt, sick and just not getting his way. He loves to play with bubba when bubba lets him. He also loves to be outside. They are all boy in every way. Logan is more sensitive then Zach but he stands his ground when he wants something or bubba tries to take his toy! They both have that stubborn quality from their daddy! lol... Brian still works at Kimray, going on 5 years in october.... wow! And this year will be our 5 year wedding anniversary in April! Where as time gone! Time sure flies when your having fun. I just hope 2011 brings the joys and laughter that 2010 did..... may God bless you all!

my favs....

well i havent wrote in a while but i have been thinking alot on writing about a few of my favprite things about my boys...
Zachary Daniel…
my top favorite thing would have to be when he climbs in bed with me in the mornings when daddysgone... he will put his arms around my neck, get right up next to my neck and whisper love you mom.... melts me right there? no matter how early he tends to rise how can you get mad at that!? then he cuddle next to me and fall back to sleep for an hour or so...
hes so independent.. loves to do things himself... says me ma me i do! lol and he usually can! he already plays video games with dad which he wins time to time. lol thats funny. hes always wanting to do things with his daddy which is so cute!
thats enough on him for now.... lol
Logan Hunter...
logan is very different from zach, where zach is just like his daddy i see alot of me in logan...
my favorite thing withlogan is his smile lights up his face all the time... he shines when he smiles. another would have to be how he sticks hos belly out when he walks! hes like super baby with his chest stickin out! lol he still wobbles a little but its so cute! my slow learner! hes pretty much happy all the time unless he is sick... which hes whinny like me... joy joy lol
thats the top list for my boys... zach loves swimming and fishing right now and logan loves food.... lol they are both growing so up fast. im trying to learn to enjoy every second and not yell too much... lol for you never know when it will end. i thank god everyday for my family.

Summer 2010 begins!....

Hey all! Well not much happening around my house lately! The boys are both growing up so fast.... Zach is almost three and a half and Logan is almost 16 months. He is still not walking, he is still scared of his height. He is already 33 inches tall! weighing 26 LBS. Zach os still half potty trained... i may kill him before he is there, for hes just as stubborn as his daddy! Need i say more! lol. Logan is very mellow like my dad but very whiney like me... lol go figure. But he is also not yet as wild and hyper as Zach is. Zach is fulll of energy 24 7! His favorite thing right now is fishing with daddy and playing ball..no matter what kind. Logan loves cartoons and just playing alone, when big brother leaves him alone. They are so different its funny. Logans smile is priceless so he has been called smiley by many strangers everytime we go out.! He loves to smile so he is usually one happy guy!
Brian is working hard still at Kimray then comes home and does yard work. Our yard looks great! 8m workin on getting pretty plants and bushes planted, getting them one by one since they get kinda pricy! Brian is trying to get me to start getting my hands dirty so i help a little with the planting. lol I have never liked getting dirt under my nails! But i can water them cause its not the dirty job! We will see how long they live! My mom does not have a green thumb so Im thinking I inherited that lack of gene! I am currently working at Ezgo on turnpike at Stroud, which is fastpaced and keeps me busy which i Like. i have been there almost nine months and it seems to last a while till i decide ti get pg again, which will not be anytime soon ignoring my mothers hoping. I am very content with my two boys for now.... a girl in the future would be nice but for now my crazy boys are good for us! With every new day they grow up, laughing and showing me new things. Motherhood is a full time hard job but its worth when tpyou put a smile on their faces! Well thats all for now from our neck of the woods!

Busy Busy Busy!

Well, lets see... its been a very long time since i shared... been rather busy, with work, and chasing my now three year old around and caring for logan whos almost one keeps me on my toes. christmas was amazing... loving every bit of family time, snow and all the moments we all shared. the christmas eve blizzard landed us all at moms for two days which was stressful being in one house with my sister and brother in law... lol.... but we survived with our hair still in tact. Christmas was exciting, Logans first... zach still loving to rip open the wrapping shout in excitment then forget it and off to the next one. he had a blast.
this was alos the first christmas effie was not a part of and it was hard, we each missing her smile, presence and great peanut brittle. a carrie underwood song temorary home, the last verse says it so well.... makes me cry everytime but its the way i like to picture effie.... seeing jesus' face rejoicing. she was very missed and always thought of.
january passed ina blur... work and kids, seems to be an endless cylce which we all enjoy.... zach turning three which is crazy considering he was just born yesterday! lol but all in all its been great.
yes we have tought times, struggles to work through but at the end of the day all that matters is the love in our hearts for each other and our friends that make our life worthwhile. God is good and to be praised everyday for the love he gives us to share with people we love.

Shocking Truth ?

Well, today my mother told me some very shocking news. She spent and hour and a half last night talking to Effies sister Ruth on the phone. Lets just say it was a conversation that held a lot of meaning and surprises that came to life. I She revealed some very shocking things, concerns concerning Effies daughter Linda. Please bare with me as i explain, for its really hard to think about.
I never really knew linda, she lived in the city and was hardly ever around, that i can remember anyways. She is the oldest of effies four children that are still alive, two had already passed on. So therefore, when effie got sick, in the hospital and everything, Linda took charge. Charge of everything, which we thought was natural. She told us that the boys, the other three siblings, didnt really want to step up, didnt wanna face the truth, which we could see, so we thought. Well, from day one of effies hospital stay linda always just really blew everyone off, saying shes about the same really everytime anyone would ask how effie was. But we just thought she was telling the truth....
well, as mom was telling me the conversation last night, that was probably not the truth at all, rather something linda said just to get everyone to back off and leave her alone, to deal with her mother on her own.
According to ruth, which is effies loving sister who mom trusts with her whole heart Linda may have been the cause to effies death....
I nearly fainted hearing this... what?? how in the world could this daughter that was effies pride and joy be the cause of her death!? well, mom went on the explain.
Linda had told everyone that she had retired from a bank where she worked for over twenty years, which ruth now tells mom that she was fired not quit. PLus, she has a gambling problem, which explains. Effie was clearly ashamed because she had never told mom. So long story short, ruth believes when effie had the heart surgery and was doing good in the hospital, that linda moved her to the rehab place, ON HER OWN and thats when she turned for the worst. Doctors did not advise her to be moved. Linda did it, why!!?? who knows.... effie had two life insurance policies. Effie was getting better in the hospital and as soon as she was put in the other place her body started shutting down. She was giving up, is what linda told us. NO!!!!! Linda gave up on her!!!! Maybe she wanted the money,? why else would you move her!!!! it blows my mind. I cant imagine letting my mother die so i could have her money!!!! And, all the money effie left behind, linda kept, not sharing any with her brothers. i cant believe it.... effie might still be here today if linda had not moved her. You could tell seeing her in that place that she was unhappy, the look of defeat! now i can understand why! Her heart had healed phyisically but her daughter broke it afterwards..... effie may still be with us if her daughter hadnt been selfish, put on a big front! it breaks my heart. i know shes in a better place, and it was her time or god wouldnt have taken her, but still... why would her own daughter do it??? how can she do it?? now, she wont even talk to her aunt, Ruth, and hasnt gave anyone in her family a dime.... how sad.....

i must go for now had to vent a little.... just dont understand what some people will do.