baby or no baby?

I am thinking about having another baby. i would love to have a little girl. ! A girl to go shopping with, teach to cook, sew, scrapbook and dress up! yet on the other hand, I am very content with my too loving boys. Zach will be 4 next week. I think im in shock. That means he will start school in the fall! This begins a whole new chpt in his life that doesnt revolve around me or his daddy..... logan will be 2 next month so he isnt a baby either anymore. Maybe im having baby syndrome.?
And... school. I love having the opportunity of going back to school....I apply for the radiology prg this semester and will knw in June whether I am chosen. they only take 25 students so im crossing my fingers.... !
Brian n I discussed having a baby if i do not get into that program this spring. Yet, do I wanna have another baby and then try again next year for the program only to have a newborn at home? We have already decided if I did have another baby I would no longer work and that means probably no school either... do I want that or wait?? But if i wait then that puts more years between the kids and how many years are too many for them to be close? If i wait that means my two boys will be well out of the baby stage would we want to go back and start over then? I really would love to have another baby yet my mind right now wants a degree! I guess all i can do is pray that I get into the program or decide its Gods will to have another baby. Gods will be done right....
it would be nice not to have to work but can we really afford another baby with only one income? Brians income pays the bills but what about the extras we enjoy now. I dunno.. im torn on this...

WHat does everyone think??? I would love opinions and advice! My scatterbrain is just scattered on this!

NEW YEAR 2011!!!

HEY EVERYONE!! Wow already another year! It is crazy the older I get how time flies! 2010 was an overall good year I believe. I started school again, hoping to enter into the Radiology program this fall... that is if i can make a good score on that dreeded MATH compass test! Urg.... math is not my friend! I like school this time around. I find it challenging, and I actually like what im learning. In high school, there was so much drama and useless bs that I hated it. This time go round, im a little more mature and I actually wanna do this for myself and my family. I wanna get a degree so I can help support my family and get out of working dead end jobs. I go to Rose State which is smaller then UCO where I went for a year after high school. I like it alot and I started online classes as well and i really like how you can do it when you have the time.... It is very convientent since i chase two little boys, a husband, and work part time.
Overall 2010 went by way too fast. My boys will be turning 4 and 2 this month and next month! Zach is being very stubborn in the toilet training dept. but is getting it better if he would just go number two in the toilet! Hes very determined, independent and loves to be outside with papa and the animals. He is a very outgoing and strong almost 4 year old. He will be starting prek this fall, which Im looking forward to so he can learn and grow but yet will be a very hard thing... which many of you already know. Logan is turning 2 in Feb. Hes also getting indepenent and growing up way too fast! Hes more like me in everyway... he milks it when hes hurt, sick and just not getting his way. He loves to play with bubba when bubba lets him. He also loves to be outside. They are all boy in every way. Logan is more sensitive then Zach but he stands his ground when he wants something or bubba tries to take his toy! They both have that stubborn quality from their daddy! lol... Brian still works at Kimray, going on 5 years in october.... wow! And this year will be our 5 year wedding anniversary in April! Where as time gone! Time sure flies when your having fun. I just hope 2011 brings the joys and laughter that 2010 did..... may God bless you all!