my favs....

well i havent wrote in a while but i have been thinking alot on writing about a few of my favprite things about my boys...
Zachary Daniel…
my top favorite thing would have to be when he climbs in bed with me in the mornings when daddysgone... he will put his arms around my neck, get right up next to my neck and whisper love you mom.... melts me right there? no matter how early he tends to rise how can you get mad at that!? then he cuddle next to me and fall back to sleep for an hour or so...
hes so independent.. loves to do things himself... says me ma me i do! lol and he usually can! he already plays video games with dad which he wins time to time. lol thats funny. hes always wanting to do things with his daddy which is so cute!
thats enough on him for now.... lol
Logan Hunter...
logan is very different from zach, where zach is just like his daddy i see alot of me in logan...
my favorite thing withlogan is his smile lights up his face all the time... he shines when he smiles. another would have to be how he sticks hos belly out when he walks! hes like super baby with his chest stickin out! lol he still wobbles a little but its so cute! my slow learner! hes pretty much happy all the time unless he is sick... which hes whinny like me... joy joy lol
thats the top list for my boys... zach loves swimming and fishing right now and logan loves food.... lol they are both growing so up fast. im trying to learn to enjoy every second and not yell too much... lol for you never know when it will end. i thank god everyday for my family.

Summer 2010 begins!....

Hey all! Well not much happening around my house lately! The boys are both growing up so fast.... Zach is almost three and a half and Logan is almost 16 months. He is still not walking, he is still scared of his height. He is already 33 inches tall! weighing 26 LBS. Zach os still half potty trained... i may kill him before he is there, for hes just as stubborn as his daddy! Need i say more! lol. Logan is very mellow like my dad but very whiney like me... lol go figure. But he is also not yet as wild and hyper as Zach is. Zach is fulll of energy 24 7! His favorite thing right now is fishing with daddy and playing ball..no matter what kind. Logan loves cartoons and just playing alone, when big brother leaves him alone. They are so different its funny. Logans smile is priceless so he has been called smiley by many strangers everytime we go out.! He loves to smile so he is usually one happy guy!
Brian is working hard still at Kimray then comes home and does yard work. Our yard looks great! 8m workin on getting pretty plants and bushes planted, getting them one by one since they get kinda pricy! Brian is trying to get me to start getting my hands dirty so i help a little with the planting. lol I have never liked getting dirt under my nails! But i can water them cause its not the dirty job! We will see how long they live! My mom does not have a green thumb so Im thinking I inherited that lack of gene! I am currently working at Ezgo on turnpike at Stroud, which is fastpaced and keeps me busy which i Like. i have been there almost nine months and it seems to last a while till i decide ti get pg again, which will not be anytime soon ignoring my mothers hoping. I am very content with my two boys for now.... a girl in the future would be nice but for now my crazy boys are good for us! With every new day they grow up, laughing and showing me new things. Motherhood is a full time hard job but its worth when tpyou put a smile on their faces! Well thats all for now from our neck of the woods!

Busy Busy Busy!

Well, lets see... its been a very long time since i shared... been rather busy, with work, and chasing my now three year old around and caring for logan whos almost one keeps me on my toes. christmas was amazing... loving every bit of family time, snow and all the moments we all shared. the christmas eve blizzard landed us all at moms for two days which was stressful being in one house with my sister and brother in law... lol.... but we survived with our hair still in tact. Christmas was exciting, Logans first... zach still loving to rip open the wrapping shout in excitment then forget it and off to the next one. he had a blast.
this was alos the first christmas effie was not a part of and it was hard, we each missing her smile, presence and great peanut brittle. a carrie underwood song temorary home, the last verse says it so well.... makes me cry everytime but its the way i like to picture effie.... seeing jesus' face rejoicing. she was very missed and always thought of.
january passed ina blur... work and kids, seems to be an endless cylce which we all enjoy.... zach turning three which is crazy considering he was just born yesterday! lol but all in all its been great.
yes we have tought times, struggles to work through but at the end of the day all that matters is the love in our hearts for each other and our friends that make our life worthwhile. God is good and to be praised everyday for the love he gives us to share with people we love.

Shocking Truth ?

Well, today my mother told me some very shocking news. She spent and hour and a half last night talking to Effies sister Ruth on the phone. Lets just say it was a conversation that held a lot of meaning and surprises that came to life. I She revealed some very shocking things, concerns concerning Effies daughter Linda. Please bare with me as i explain, for its really hard to think about.
I never really knew linda, she lived in the city and was hardly ever around, that i can remember anyways. She is the oldest of effies four children that are still alive, two had already passed on. So therefore, when effie got sick, in the hospital and everything, Linda took charge. Charge of everything, which we thought was natural. She told us that the boys, the other three siblings, didnt really want to step up, didnt wanna face the truth, which we could see, so we thought. Well, from day one of effies hospital stay linda always just really blew everyone off, saying shes about the same really everytime anyone would ask how effie was. But we just thought she was telling the truth....
well, as mom was telling me the conversation last night, that was probably not the truth at all, rather something linda said just to get everyone to back off and leave her alone, to deal with her mother on her own.
According to ruth, which is effies loving sister who mom trusts with her whole heart Linda may have been the cause to effies death....
I nearly fainted hearing this... what?? how in the world could this daughter that was effies pride and joy be the cause of her death!? well, mom went on the explain.
Linda had told everyone that she had retired from a bank where she worked for over twenty years, which ruth now tells mom that she was fired not quit. PLus, she has a gambling problem, which explains. Effie was clearly ashamed because she had never told mom. So long story short, ruth believes when effie had the heart surgery and was doing good in the hospital, that linda moved her to the rehab place, ON HER OWN and thats when she turned for the worst. Doctors did not advise her to be moved. Linda did it, why!!?? who knows.... effie had two life insurance policies. Effie was getting better in the hospital and as soon as she was put in the other place her body started shutting down. She was giving up, is what linda told us. NO!!!!! Linda gave up on her!!!! Maybe she wanted the money,? why else would you move her!!!! it blows my mind. I cant imagine letting my mother die so i could have her money!!!! And, all the money effie left behind, linda kept, not sharing any with her brothers. i cant believe it.... effie might still be here today if linda had not moved her. You could tell seeing her in that place that she was unhappy, the look of defeat! now i can understand why! Her heart had healed phyisically but her daughter broke it afterwards..... effie may still be with us if her daughter hadnt been selfish, put on a big front! it breaks my heart. i know shes in a better place, and it was her time or god wouldnt have taken her, but still... why would her own daughter do it??? how can she do it?? now, she wont even talk to her aunt, Ruth, and hasnt gave anyone in her family a dime.... how sad.....

i must go for now had to vent a little.... just dont understand what some people will do.

Thanks and blessings....

well, not much to say today, but just wanted to say thanks... to God, family and friends. My friend recently had a baby at 28 weeks and it just got me thanking god for two easy, healthy pregnancies and kids. I know this is truly a blessing, esp in todays society. I feel so previledged to have had that. I try my best to live a godly life, which is not easy and at times i fail, but he is forever there and good in my life. No matter what happens, good or bad i know it goes through gods hands first, which makes me smile cause i know he will not give us more than we can handle. This new job is a blessing, yet a challenge too for none of my co workers are christians and live lives that are not very godly. Which in turns make me thank god repeatedly for all he has given me. Without him we are nothing.
Family and friends make life worth while. I will always be grateful for those who listen, inspire and just take time out for me and my family. God knows what each of us needs and brings the right person in at the right time. Were no where near perfect dont get me wrong, but i enjoy life with god right on my side, leading and changing us each and everyday.
Well, have to head to bed, we sleep while they sleep... which isnt much these days working really threw off my sleep patterns... anyways, i hope to blog more regularly if i ever find the time... until next time!!! GOD BLESS

Busy Busy

ok, so i havent blogged in a while so i thought i would catch everyone up! lol Since my last post life has been super busy. I got a job, which i desperately needed and i like it. Its at EZ GO on the turnpike at stroud. I like it because its money, who doesnt, and pay is better then any other job i have had, it stays busy all the time, a constant thing to do so i dont get bored! I am a little sore, i mopped the entire store last night and im super sore... i havent worked that hard since before ZAch, three years!!!! i am soo out of shape, two babies and a galbladder removal will do that to a person! But im crossing my fingers and hoping that i can loose weight with this job too so thats a plus! But i really enjoy working, sitting at home in the house all day was driving me crazy. i love spending time with my kids, but i needed a job to keep my sanity. lol. but im only working part time so i really enjoy it cause it also gives me days home with the boys. But financially we needed a second income, in todays society its hard supporting four on one income. anywho, i like it so i hope it goes well, once my muscles get use to the work.... lol
well, logan is seven and a half months old!! Crazyness!!! he is growing up so fast! He has four teeth, refuses to lay on his stomach to learn to crawl, but immediatlely rolls over. funny he thinks. hes very smiley, loves to laugh and is a great baby. I am extremely blessed to have two good babies. Logan is alot like me and my dad i believe where zach is brians twin, help us all. lol. Logan is very laid back and happy go lucky, where zach is to but he has to be on the go constantly, working or helping and getting into everything!! Zach is independent, a helper always even if its not much a help, a hard worker he wil be and i love that about him. I cant wait till logan gets that age to see what his traits will be! =)
Zach is two and a half, three in january and still refuses to go to the big boy potty!! He still sits on it forever just to sit then pees in the floor so i think it will be a long process, oh did i mention he is just as stubborn as his daddy too!! omg hard headed through and through, like father like son.... lol
anyways,
mom.... well shes doing ok. After Effies funeral things have been different. She said to me once "who will i run around with, go shopping with? call just to chat?
" shes taking it hard, for she was her best friend for thirty years, but she has been so strong. She remembers her for the friend she was and all the precious memories we have had. She gets down every once in a while but who wouldnt? I cant imagine loosing a friend of that many years would be easy, but she feels truly blessed for the time she had with Effie. We all do. That little white house on the corner of eleventh street will never be the same, without the big happy heart of that very special lady we all came to love.
well, before i start a tear party, i better change the subject...
My adopted sister Kelsey had her baby this past month, a perfect little girl weighing a little 5 pounds, my kids head weighed more than that! But it was such a beautiful thing. Maybe not under the best circumstances she was created but she is so dearly loved and brought two people together in a way i am thankful for. I think they wil be a happy little family, regardless of what the world thinks of them. For they are one, and happy and no one can hinder that. Zayli is her name and she is a true blessing of how God can get someones attention, which has certainly happened in this case. Kelsey and De has been given this daughter to love and protect and watching them with her i know they certainly do and will for the rest of their laugh. For once, i remeber kels has a little girl, not a care in the world, now all grown up having a baby of her own, how god can change us all. Kels is grown into a beautiful young lady, a mother. God is Good

lets see.... i guess i cant think of anything else. Brian still works at Kimray and loves it.... gets to start working overtime again, which is great... i love my new job, and my kids are growing up way tooo fast!!! If this rain ever dries up, it will be nothing but sunshine and laughs around this house!!!

Saying Goodbye is never easy

This past week a dear friend of our family passed away. Mrs. Effie Beaird. She was like a gradma to me, and a best friend to my mom for 33 years. So needless to say, it was a tough week.
Monday was the day we got the news. We had been up there to see effie at the hospital the following friday and just had a gut feeling that she was ready to go to heaven. Mom and dad then spent most of the day saturday and sunday. We all were not ready to say goodbye. For she had been sick for several months and i guess just was ready to go home. She had valve surgery and her heart healed fine, but her other organs decided to shut down. We were all with her the day of her heart surgery, got to hug her, say i love you so we were thankful for that. For during her last two months, she could not talk cause she had to be on the breathing tubes. At first she could smile and respond, but the last couple days couldnt even do that. It was too sad for me to watch. The first time i went ot see her at the rehab place, she was so swollen she couldnt hardly fit in the bed. I was so shocked. I only stayed in there a minute and went out crying. I couldnt stand looking at her, the once strong solid women i had knew all my life, now lay helpless, swollen so large that it just broke my heart. The next time we went to see her in the hospital, where her daughter took her back to, the friday before she died i did the same thing. I couldnt make myself stay in there and look at her dying, it was just too much. Looking back i wish i could have been stronger to share those last days with her, but my heart just couldnt do it.
The monday she died, everytime moms phone ring we were just waiting. Waiting for the call to come that she had passed. Passed on the be with jesus. Thats the only reason we all made it through the last couple weeks. Knowing she was a very strong christian and she would be going to see her King. Like a wise friend of mine told me, its not goodbye, its see you later... For we will meet her again in the sky.
The funeral service was saturday. It was tough. But yet it was a great service. LIke the preacher said our flesh will be sad and missing her, yet our spirit rejoices cause we know shes in a better place. I can picture her clear as day, singing and rejoicing with our lord.
We will miss her smile, her words of encouragement and her presence. My mom said yesterday, Who am i to ride around with now. But yet, we know we will move on, and remember her for the wonderful lady she was. Our grandma. Our friend.